As you can tell by the dates on these blogs, I'm really not doing very well at recording events. A lot has happened in the past month. I have a running dialog in my head of what I want to write about, but those thoughts never seem to make it to this blog. Quite frankly, my life is just a disorganized mess!
However, I do have hope!!! About two weeks ago I went to the doctor and was prescribed medicine for ADD. My world inside my head has completely changed! I have so much more focus, clarity and motivation. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel instead of completely shutting down because the tunnel seems too dark. I've taken one nap in the past two weeks! It's amazing because sleep is my favored mode of escape and denial.
Unfortunately, medicine is not the cure all. The medicine has given me clarity and a sense of positivity, but now I have to teach myself how to gain control and organize my life. Just because I'm feeling better doesn't mean I automatically know how to do this. I am so used to living in a state a chaos, that this is new territory for me. I LOVE the thought of being organized, but I just can't manage to get there. Hopefully I'm beginning to walk down a new path that will finally bring a sense of calm to our household. I recently purchased two books: Unclutter Your Life in One Week and ADD Friendly Ways to Organize Your Life.
So, my goal for this weekend is to start reading the books. And with any luck, I'll get at least one post up about Wade's new wheelchair!